"How can embracing solitude lead to personal growth and self-discovery?"

Walking this life journey and listening to deep feelings and witnessing the rising waves within, this is one thing which I came to realize that we have to accept that we are living alone – maybe in a crowd, but we are all living alone; maybe with someone near, but we are alone in our aloneness, you are alone in your aloneness, and those aloneness-es don´t touch each other, can never touch each other.

We may live with someone for ten-twenty-fifty years – it makes no difference, we will remain strangers. Always and always you will be strangers. Time to accept the fact that we are strangers; that we don´t know who the other is, that we don´t know who we are even. When we accept that - I myself don´t know who I am, so how can I know the other?

But somehow if you at people, maybe looking at yourself you are presuming that I should know the other, and the other is assuming that I should know them. Everybody is functioning as if everybody is a mind reader, and the others should know, before they say it, be it needs, or problems – and they should do something. Don’t you see this stupidity,  all this nonsense?

Nobody knows you, not even you, so don´t expect that anybody else should know you; it is not possible in the very nature of things. We are all strangers. Perhaps by chance we have met and we are together, but our aloneness is there. We should not forget it, because we have to work upon it. Only from there is our redemption, our salvation. But the little clever me inside is doing just the opposite: how can we forget our aloneness? By engaging in with activities outside we somehow don´t let this aloneness come to our conscious mind – and there lies one of the whole secrets.

Yes, we have to accept our aloneness, which in no way we can avoid. And there is no way to change its nature. It is our authentic reality. It is who we are.

We are on this earth, but in fact, we cannot be on this earth, deeply seeing, we are not, it is only a feeling. Truth is we are strangers on this earth, we have made a home in our body, but our body is not our home.

No, one is of this earth, yes, it appears, we feel, but in reality, we exist in the sky- our nature is of the sky. Being means the inner sky, and body means the earth, as the body is made of earth element. It is the sky and earth meeting within us; we are the horizon where it seems the earth is meeting the sky. But has it ever met? Far away the horizon appears as if sky touching the earth. But by walking miles to get closer to life after life, we will never reach a place, where the sky touches the earth; it is all just a mirage. How can a being touch a body? How will a mortal meet the immortal ever? How can a being merge with the body? It is only our concept, assumption, and idea – the horizon existing is out of not knowing, or understanding the reality.

People somehow try to call the other friend, say he/she is mine, I am theirs, well all is but a game of the mind, because otherwise darkness is seen and people want to run away from darkness, seeing accepting self and others as strangers, is the first step of knowing darkness. It is only when we can feel we are absolutely, is the time we realize we are not the body, it is only a cover; that we are not the mind, it is only a mechanism; that we are not the heart, it is just another mechanism with different purposes. And once these layers drop, we see a space, the sky, crystal clear, that purity is absolute. To enter that space is to enter into Dhyan, meditation, and feeling that aloneness, can we feel the whole existence is alone, I am a stranger, so are you, so are we all – strangers.

Now darkness has a silence and has a depth, it has peace too, and above all it takes away all our knowledge, takes away all that belongs to us. Guess this is why people talk about light, inner light more and a few very rare like Buddha, Ashtavakra talked about darkness. Darkness leads us to the unknown and for sure into the mysterious space too. Understanding a little of what to be alive means and experiencing life, I am knowing that one who is afraid of darkness will always find hard to enter into their own being. I feel that knowing darkness is rediscovering the real self, as it is eternal, indestructible, the basic substance existence is made of. Aloneness or darkness or stranger I feel are just three names of the same – the real self.

If you can open your eyes just a little more, you will start to see that everybody is dumping their problems on others without even able to see that the other I doing the same. All problems arise all dissatisfaction arises, because of we not taking responsibility in its totality. Once we stop dumping our problems on others, we will start solving our problems and slowly every personality will transform into individuality and each individual will solve his/her problem. And you will find, that there are not many problems, it is maybe just a problem unsolved, which creates chain of unsolved problems. And the problem is – How to enter your aloneness without fear?

Have you ever thought of this? Well, it is not a problem at all, as it is solution to all our problems. But we make it a problem by listening and following others. My Guru said – that the blind follow blind leaders and blind priests and it is a circle, Darsan calls this samsara. You will have to stop playing the game- the stupid game of circling. You have to be yourself, you were born alone, and you will die alone, aloneness is our reality, do not try to escape as it is never going to be possible. People ask what is life, well between birth and death, we are all alone, so what can life be anything other than aloneness? We simply need to go in, dive into our center, and rejoice in our aloneness, the deeper we move in, the farther the problems will be, the center of our being, is home – arriving home, is what meditation is.

Once we start to unburden ourselves, we start to have a glimpse of our being. Once truly tasted, it lasts forever, this is Tantra.